I'm yours to keep,

My Wishlist.

2009-10-01T10:27:00.000-07:00

Please remember that My Birthday's on 13th November!
Pls start saving up from TODAY! (You shld have already started btw.)
Here's my WISHLIST!
Vouchers are most welcome! HAHAHA,
Okay, I shal stop being annoying! ^^

River Island & Topshop Stud Earrings!
& gosh few of those super nice, Gold plus Colorful Bangles.
The Guess Handbag! ^^
LV Bag!
Black PSP.
Casio Gold Watch.
Sony Camera.
Ralph Lauren Romantic.
Coach Wristlet! (Aiya but POPS has it rdy! LOL.)
ACER lappy!
More Studio Shoots?

.... & finally, proposal from you? HOHO.

<3
I can't wait to fall in love, with you! ^^
Hurry, can I turn time like forward?

<3

2009-09-21T01:13:00.001-07:00

Exams are finally done with, & the hols were here a wek back!
I know my blog has been so dead since like..a long time ago?
Holidays were here a week back! & I've been enjoying myself! LOL.
Hols started on Friday actually! Saturday was spent out with the cousins!
& caught the midnight movie with them, THE UGLY TRUTH! Nice. (:
Then, Sunday was the usual clean-house-day!

Monday was shopping at Bugis with the Girls! Then, Seesha at Arab St.
The place was super good, with damn good food please.
NABINS, thats the shop's name! (:

Tuesday was pampering the nails! Haha.
Pedicure was at Far East, with Paulyn Darling! :D

Wednesday was shopping at town!!
I bought a new a pair of heels from C&K!
No no, actually, my Sistalove bought it for me!
With Larve's recommendations kay! HAHA.

Thursday was like surprsing Larve at her plave cos it was her sexy 18th!
She was turning legal, and the best part, she can go take her driving rdy! ):
I've got a year more. And I love her mummy, she's so adorable! Heehee.
Then off to my fav aunty's place!
Played with the darling Cuties! HAHA,
then finally got back home after shopping at Tampines for baby toys and clothes!

Then Friday, the big day arrives.. like finally!
Mum's Graduation at SIM.
We all went for it.
"It is a family event." HAHA, that guy said.
He bored me to death with his speech, at the end.
OH. & i love my aunty so much okay! she's like the best please!

LOL. Then trained all the way to Pasir Ris with Pops!
Larve's chalet, at Aranda! Loved the Balloons!
Hated my hair, it was being a bitch! HAHA.
& then we stayed over & had all the fun in the world!

Saturday was the Family Photo Shoot at The Serangoon Broadway Studio.
So we all looked as if we were going to attend some wedding dinner!
HAHAHA, but damn, i loved my hair. & the dress.
But we haven't got the pictures yet! ): Hope it turns out nice!

& yest was Sunday, so back to cleaning day!
Now that makes a week! (:
Today, is just sleep and slack whole day!
LOL. BYEXZ! (for now).

OH! all picts on FB luh, I lazy to upload here. LOL.

Fucked Up.

2009-07-14T05:45:00.000-07:00

Those days I was with you, will never be forgotten.

It showed me the meaning of happiness, Literally.

I didn't know what was it like to be sad, during those days.

You showed me love, care, concern, everything under the sun.

But you forgot to teach me how would I carry on without you.

I Love You, I really do.

When will you realize, I will never know.

To be honest, there's no more hopes left.

Lets see what time can do.

Till then, let nature take it's course.

Back to Square one. Unexpected.

2009-07-14T05:28:00.000-07:00

Until this minute, I still can't find that negative point in you.

I've got no idea why all these is happening.

We were so happy together.

And within the blink of an eye, its all gone!

Why's she coming back to you,

When she threw you away when you most needed her?

And now you keep me aside when she comes back?

Think about it.

You wanna go thru the same torture?

What's wrong with you.

I don't blame you.

Cos i know memories are unforgettable.

But boy, these things are plain to see.

Idk what to do or say.

I wanna see you, and talk to you like before.

I don't wanna be in the present at all.

I wanna go back to the past.

When you and I were called WE.

Now when I'm having all these problems,

You don't know what's happening and prolly think I'm happy.

The shoulder for me to lean on is not there anymore.

I feel lost w/o you.

You'll never know that.

I miss you hell lots.

I need you bak.

I feel like i can't do without you.

I even hesitate to call or text.

Idk if you're feeling the same.

I wanna know what is happening between you and her.

God will you help me please?

Show him the right way,

It need not be my way.

But sth that will be best for him,

will be more than enough.

I LOVE YOU,

& I miss you more than you'll ever think.

My new bf! (=

2009-06-06T06:41:00.000-07:00

School has been great.

Pretty hectic in fact!

love my class, love the friends, love the lecturers.

But didn't know i'll be so caught up.

Many many assignments.

I aim for either A or B grade so that i can get into poly dip.

suddenly i love studying la.

More of projects anyway.

& I LOVE KIDS.

Haha, (:

What had happened, has happened.

I can't change anything.

I can bet on what you're gonna think but,

I can't do anything.

I'm sorry.

On a lighter note, I found someone new.

Who seems to be almost perfect.

But sth tells me that its the honeymoon period,

and that I haven't just discovered his -tive point yet.

But nvm la, as well its 2-sided, i'm more than happy.

So far everything's going on well.

He takes care of me well and keeps me happy.

I've been spending weekends with him.

But i swear its hard to have your guy in army.

I believe trust is the key.

And i trust him whole heartedly, thats what love is all about.

I LOVE YOU, BOY.

I MISS YOU like crazy, every moment! )=

Cause with every kiss & every hug,

You make me fall in love.

My first loverboy.

2009-03-19T08:11:00.002-07:00

I'm sorry, but...
I'm doubtful, of your love.
I don't wanna be cheated again.
19th March 2009.
The start of something new, baby.

Will you be My Boo?

2009-03-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

There's always that one person,
That will always have your heart.
You never see it coming, cause
You're blinded from the start.
Know that you're that one for me,
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh Baby, you will always be My Boo!

I don't quite know if its infatuation or something else, yet.

6 freaking days for you to be back.
I miss you real bad.
♥

East Coast.

2009-02-15T07:33:00.000-08:00

Haven't been updating much.
I guess, i'm too caught up with having a life!
Thaipusam was a blast!
Saw all my friends! (makkals?)
& I missed HIS part.
DAMN! i was so ):
But i saw my eye candy! teehee,
he's sofreaking cute,
and that scene was like how its like in movies.
gosh, total co-incidence!
Then, dad left that night to malaysia for a week's stay at penang.
*wink wink*
So, Shar stayed over my place on wednesday after a day's shopping!
No need to say la, ofc very fun!
Then, next day was East Coast with Char, Manda, Ching & the 2 of us!
(Wah, like couple horr!)
then, Larve and my sister met us.
Cycled, ate, chit-chatted.
Went over to Ice Cream Chefs'.
Then, Char, Ching, & Amanda left first.
So, Shar, I , my sister and Larve had 49 Katong Laksa!
Its like the best! Then, home-d lorr!
Pictures below! (: (not all tho)
Thursday- Mummy, Sister & I went off to JB to give our
101 materials for tailoring. Heeeheee. Self-designed horr!
Fridays are for Vicky, cause i and his mummy bring him for
appointment at TTSH! & thats how the day's spent.
Saturday-Dad comes back from Penang, with a scorpion tattoo!
Gosh! SO0 much for saying, that if i do a tattoo, it'll be only over his dead body!
& today's family day! Mummy and i baked, then do the usuals like...
clean house and watch movie after movie! =)
Another great week ahead... ((:

Valentine's Day.

2009-02-14T07:59:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day.
Supp to be very special.
Everyone's doing sth.
But i got no mood to do anything.
Sorry to the 2 i rejected with lies along that i had plans.
But at actual fact, i didn't wanna date anyone else except HIM.
the one & only.
I can't go with anyone else.
doesn't seem right.
Tho, i knew he was happily spending his day at his gf's place.
You wouldn't think that i literally st down and thought of you.
You thought i dated someone out.
Nvm, you'll never know how it feels to be this way.
I was somehow glad you're back with her, happy once again.
though it hurts big time in th inside.
Oh well... all i can say's that, i'm glad you're still my friend.
GOD knows erythng.
So.. i shall let nature take its course & god do his job.
Happy Valentine's Day to you, anyway.

In your eyes, there's this magic I see.
The magic of the moonlight.
Your breath carries my heart away,
Like the wind caries a weightless kite.
You love HER,
So.. DON'T DENY!

Nothing's gonna change the fact that i still love you so very much.

-

2009-01-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU, LARVENA PRIYA MOGAN!
*sorry for snapping the most unglam shots of you without your knowledge!
I love you when you're most unglam, anyway.
Sweetest Girl, Always.
Just wanna let you know that, you're irreplaceable,
& that i'll always be here for you! (:

-

2009-01-23T04:03:00.000-08:00

I MISS YOU ALL!
from the bottom of my heart.
& these 4 words do mean more than what they seem to be.
Loved much;

I'll be missing you

2009-01-07T08:32:00.000-08:00

Time spent with you, is always treasured.
The memories made, will always be left unforgotten.
& no matter what, you're always at the back of my mind.
Thoughts of you, are always there;
Which time cannot erase.
Lets just wait and see what this love can do.
I wish you could just take me away to a secret place.
& it'll be just me and you.

I should know,
That you're no good for me.
& thats why,
I love you, Boy.

+_+

2009-01-02T07:43:00.003-08:00

Zomgah! So much has been happenning.
One of the best holidays! Gosh.
Its either go out or work!
And its so balanced. I likeee!
hahaha, anyways.
Have been meeting Bala alot.
Then his friend happens to be so cute.
Haha, so that was my fling. (he has a super hot body!)
But still my friend now, i'm glad.
Haha, but a little weird la. Tsk.

So Christmas was spent at Fling's place.
I know, he's so niceee! (extremely cute and handsome! )
& then i started bringing his sister for outings. She's only 7.
So cute okay, she's so attached to me! Love that girl.
(Picture below)
Haha, and now, i've got a new eye candy.
And i heard, i'm his eye candy too!
How exciting! So i've been seeing him quite alot as well.

Hmm, pay's motivating me alot.
But i feel like quitting.
Hate the color bar!
So racists mann.
Gosh, so much from that idiot who can't speak english!
She speaks to me in chinese and scolds me cos i don't understand!
Crazy Woman!

Anyways, I'm loving life right now!
haha, its like the best part of life.
But i'm also anxious for results.
Oh gosh!

I like my eye candy sooo much!
He's so adorable.
=)

i love you, Mr.BalaKumaran.

2008-12-17T08:16:00.001-08:00

Take me by my hand,

& Stand by my side.
All I want is you.
Will you stay with me?

I love you;
Its beyond these 3 words.

fucked up

2008-12-14T09:52:00.002-08:00

So weird it can feel, at times when you feel like just exploding,
but you know you can't cos you gotta keep a certain limit to everyone.
How do i let it out?
Which wall do i bang my head on?
tell me please.
i guess this feeling can never go away.

Don’t you worry ‘bout a thing, baby.
Cause you know you got me by a string, baby.

My Big Day.

2008-12-12T06:51:00.000-08:00

Wednesday.
Out with Laughing Partner!
dearest came home to fetch me,
& we left for Yishun to watch tamil movie!
Omg, so nice kay, (:
But it was long. 3 hours.
Then, came home, dressed up again, then Larve, my sister and I,
went for Diana's cousin's movie marathon.
It was more of catching up tho.
That was at Hort Park.
Then, cabbed to hawker ctr to get Stingray and Yu Tiao.
Then off to Laughing Partner's place to makan!
Hahaha, we stayed there till like 2 plus, and cabbed back!

Thursday.
So, today's my big day? Haha, probably.
Woke up like in the afternoon! (Its a habit now!)
Dressed up, and left for Ang Mo Kio! (Second Home! Lol.)
Met Bala at his block. Went to interchange.
Relac-ed there for awhile. Hahaha, and then it was raining.
So we listened songs & talked. Then, his friends came.
We went to buy stuff. Then time flew. 6pm came.
Lover Boy sent me to work.
& guess what i went to work at 6pm instead or 11am.
But omg! Its like luck kayy.
I called Lover Boy & he asked me to accompany him.
So, i went. His dance practice!
He made me feel so good.
So i left at 11.30! (:
(At last i got a photo with this popular boy!)
After stone ages!

Awesome day, I love you.
Though the thought of you loving someone else kills on the inside.
I can't seem to be able to express how much i really like you.

Friday.
LoverBoy asked me to follow him to Bugis! :D
So, i woke the Baby up at 11! & he slept again.
I met him under his block. We bused there.
Shopped, drank Bandung, did pink extension for him!
(Same same as me eh! *grins widely*)
Came back to Amk, met RK! (after ages.)
Then, i met Larve and Pops at Bedok to makan, then cabbed home.

Another day, with LoverBoy can really bring me to tears of joy.
I will do whatever you like, boy.
I will leave the world behind.

Its not very explain-able! ):

2008-12-06T21:22:00.000-08:00

Laughing Partner.
You're still someone I keep very close to my heart.
Never gonna be replaced no matter what.

Yea. We haven't been anything like what we used to be, at all.
You've not made me upset, its just some other feeling that I don't know how to explain.
I don't know cos it doesn't seem very like that and i can't assume things right.
& I know you're not heartless. You're a nice person.
Thats why I heart my Laughing Partner so much, that I cannot keep my mouth shut.
Yea, maybe the right time hasn't came yet? I'm sorry too. But you don't need to be.
Cause I guess its not your fault. I don't know why.
But I just felt that way & I couldn't keep it to myself.
And that, did make a difference to how I feel.

HeartBreak. Nt another one please!

2008-12-04T21:35:00.000-08:00

I can just crush my desires,
& throw them into the bin!
You don't know what's this about.
& I don't intend to tell you.
Cos, you're too interested in someone else.
So I shan't bother.
If it can lead me to tears at 4am in the morning!
It really matters to me, i must say.

But sadly, I don't matter to you.
So just call me when you need me!
Never expected this from you.
Cos you were always someone so close to my heart.
Even now, but its just that i'm not important!
So just leave it, I can't force you.
There goes fate and us.

& to th BabyBoy, i adore so much,
I don't need pictures with you to remind me of you.
the time we spent,
& the memories we made,
are more than enough to keep you in my heart for a lifetime!

Go get your own, bitch.

2008-11-30T07:39:00.000-08:00

You know I hate it so much,
But you just have to keep on doing it.

I'm so sick and tired of getting pissed off, these days.

Post-Birthday Celebs.

2008-11-24T22:04:00.001-08:00

Okay, finally back from the long stayover at chalets! =)
First was mine.
Rukshini came over on friday to my place.
So we carried all the barang barang over in the cab with DAD as well.
Then, after dad left, we went to fetch her boyfie!
Then partaye all the way cos parents were not staying over that night.
Laughing Partner came over, and stayed over too!
Movies, food, and the other junk.
The, at night, bomb for me! (:
Bala came over with few friends.
Wait, not a few, like about 5.
HAHA. then they all stayed over.
Tsk, so everyone gotta squeeze.
His 4 friends, BALA, ME, rukshini, her boyfie, larve, my sister.
That was the sleeping arrangement!
HAHA, so awesome. i know! LOL.
Then next day afternoon, larve and bala's friends left!
The 3 of us left, had our own fun.
Then, did my hair but got wet in the rain.
I looked terrible! thanks to Rukshini's boyfie, my cake was safe!
THANKS SO MUCH, DINESH! =)
i owe you one.
The, the Bbq started and the food came in with people.

Huge thanks:
1) Everyone who came- Beat, Shar, Larve, Nielle, Gabby, Shanky & Family, Rukshini & Dinesh, Gladys, Jillian, Dev & Family, Pabs & Shaks, Xuan.
2) Rukshini & Dinesh- For helping me out in everything, physically and emotionally, like it was your own chalet! (: love you both
3) Larve- For making yourself comfortable so that I wouldn't be so bothered by the fact that you would feel odd. Love you, laughing partner!
4) Everybody else, for the presents, and the rest, your presence itself made my day and the party so good! Love you all. Thanks for coming. Love much.

Graduation Night, the Prom, they say!

2008-11-21T14:43:00.000-08:00

So, everything was going on well.

Rukshini came over to my place in the afternoon.
I did my hair, we dressed up, make up,
everything with the music and the air-con!
So typical. Haha. And left to share cab with the
awesome sisters, Pabs & Shaks! So pretty!
Oh gosh! I couldn't take my eyes off them!
Then finally arrived at Orchard Hotel.
Met the rest, omg, i felt like a pair of eyes wasn't
enough to examine everyone! hahah.
Food was quite good, photos as usual, then,
after everything, left to Aljunied to meet that boy with Rukshini!
=) Almost went to Amk but i assured larve i won't go.
So i didn't cos i know she didn't want me to! ):

I was born on Friday the 13th.

2008-11-13T21:07:00.000-08:00

My birthday, Tuesday the 13th, this time.

I woke up early to collect passport,
and didn't expect a surprise waiting for me behind my door!
So i reached home, (so unglam) and Larve and my sister
surprised me with cake, pizza and balloons! (Helium ones, my fav!)
Then yup, cake cutting, eating, and our usual fun.
Thanks dearests, for the surprise, cos it really made my day! =)

My Laughing Partner, the sweetest ever!
Thanks for the awesome pullover. I love it.
& thanks sistalove for the Ipod Classic. =)

Then, dinner was at Fish & Co at Dhobby Ghaut, with the familyy!
=)

Thank you to all those who wished me! (:
The wishes made my day, as well.

Sad excuses & False hopes high.

2008-11-09T08:23:00.000-08:00

If only you were mine,
I swear I would give up all my eyecandies,
just for you, dearest.

I like you very much still,
But I guess I will never confess.

Cos i know its impossible.
yet, I'm living in fake hopes.

so muc hopes, you'll never realise.

2008-11-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

feels like crap.
But still, i miss you the most.
And thanks for keeping me happy those days.
I appreciate it; Alot indeed.

Anyways, on a lighter note,

Thanks for inviting,
& Happy Deepavali.

I miss you, honestly, and deeply, its comming from the bottom of my heart.

Mummy's murukku, so addictive luh!
GOODNESS.

All these Shit.

2008-10-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

Damn, I really miss it all.
Old times will NEVER be forgotten.
I treasured you like no other.
& Now, its all crashing down on me.
It feels like even if things get in place like before,
It will never feel the same.
It just feels like there's this gap between us now.
Nothing like before,
When climbed over every barrier.
I can daringly say,
Irreplaceable.

You won't know how much I liked you.

the huge mistake was liking you.

2008-10-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

Happy Deepavali
(:

SO FAT, SO FAT, SO FAT!
i need to shed those fats!
like after the 6th!
OH GOSH!

My heart's still with you.

2008-10-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

Maybe thats why you like her and not me.
Never thought it'd be this way.

Mixed emotions.
Its not the right time for this.
):

Your love was a lie.
I mean "love."

Maybe its all misunderstood.

2008-10-11T10:25:00.000-07:00

Graduation = Depressing

To all my friends:
I will definitely miss you guys who'd been there for me.
The memories we made, are unforgettable.
I will miss you guys.

I hope things will be the same.
I love my friends.
I wouldn't give up anything for you guys,
cos y'all are irreplaceable.
Words may not be enough to express how i really feel.
But i hope you know that i want you guys to be,
Friends Forever.
(Tho it sounds so cliche)

Maybe its all misunderstood.

You used to be the sweetest ever! ILY.

2008-09-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hate it when everyone talks about the oh-so perfect dream guy.
Seriously, not their fault.
But, haha, i don't know how to explain.
I mean there's a reason why its called DREAM guy right.
I used to have one too.
A hot body, good-looking, blah-blah-blah.
But, somehow, i seem to be happy with my favourite boy!
Totally unexpected, not the kind i'd turn and look back.
i didn't expect anything, not even an eye contact!
But, yea. Looking at myself now, tho things are not very happening,
I seem to be glad with what i used to have, and the small happiness i get these days.

Everybody finishes it off in one word.
a strong one, CHEAT.
But to carefully think about it, tho its partially true,
it seems better this way. I mean if he had came up to me,
and said he had a gf and asked me to backoff, I'd prolly call him a bastard
and could have entered IMH for depression.
Wait, i'm exaggerating. LOL.

But ya, i think he was nice enough to just drift away.
So its not exactly cheat, know!
I guess i prefer it this way.
You're nice, not the one with the hot body,
BUT, i just like you cos you took greta efforts to please me!
And gosh, duh you did. too much, indeed!
haha, anyways, now, i guess, i've changed my mind.
I just like you for who you are, and like you just the way you are.

The pieces of my heart are missing you!
& i'd like to start from the start again.
I just miss you!

I wanna be B's girl again!
Labelled your one & only!

Dislike it to a large extent.

2008-09-25T00:11:00.000-07:00

As miserable this may seem, no one knows about this.
How long can i just shut up & keep it to myself?
I have feelings too yknow.
But you don't seem to realise.
Things thats are said and done to me.
Yea, i might seem deaf to the things said.
But in the inside, it hurts real bad.
I didn't know, friendship could hurt this much.
& it just feels like a corkboard.
Something that is poked so many times, but doesn't react.
And just a gentle reminder, I'm human.
And its getting too obvious.
I can see that there's sth bothering you.
And the state, i'm in- no one would wish to be in.
The last souls who i ever thought,would do this to me.
How disappointing.

Larve's 17.

2008-09-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

Laughing Partner turns 17, yo!
Yes, she adds colours to my life.

One of the best persons in my life.
Thanks for always being there.
& gosh, i miss those late night talks with you.
It's not been very long but, i miss you!

Lastly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAREST! *winks*
(don't forget this younger soul as you turn 1 year older;
nearer to the legal age, kay!)

It's Po's day!

2008-09-13T01:50:00.000-07:00

Its Po's day!
Put your hands up in the air!
HAHA. Yes, Amanda's Sweet 16!

Cupcakes with candles during recess was the special surprise waiting for her outside the class door, while CS was supposed to keep her occupied for awhile! But no, it wasn't awhile. Haha. Anw,

HAPPY SWEETERESTEST 16TH, AMANDA HO!

Peekturess!
More to come.

Miss Unglam.

K's & B's Girl!
oops?

Baby! (:
Don't jealous la!
I sharing alrdy can. Hee.

Anyways, after that, went for Grad night (uniform grp).
Not as bad as i thought. Handbag filled with gifts kayy!
Got personalized ones all somemore! LOL.
So, after that, bused to Amk, then lepak with Rk & friends.
He's such a good brother! (:
Anyways, homed damn late but yes, good day out.

Pops' 19th,

2008-09-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

Happy 19th Preeeya!
I know you're honoured,
& you'll prolly go "awwww"
after reading this.
Like duh!
It;s my blog you're talking about!
HAHA, anyways, i got this bitchiness from you!
& yeap, i know you hasd a very good day cos
you saw me for very little time! LOL.
& sorry this very busy O Level student, has no present for you!
HAHA.

(:

2008-09-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Shank! (:

a) Answer the questions below, do a Google image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

1) The age you’ll be on your next birthday: Sweet Sixteen

2) A place you’d like to travel to: Paris

3) Your favourite place: Backyard Playground

4) Your favourite food/drink: Subway /Caramel Frap.

5) Your favourite pet: ?

6)Your favourite colour combination: Black and Purple
cos he likes it.

7) Your favourite piece of clothing: my school uniform. Memories.

8) Your all time favourite song: The way I are - Timbaland

9) Your favourite TV show: ? i don't like tv.

10) Full name of your significant other: BalaKumaran

11) The town in which you live: Sengkang

12) Your screenname/nickname: Kats

13) Your first job: ?

14) Your dream job: Nurse. love babies

15) A bad habit you have: Liking someone too much

16) Your worst fear: Cheat on love

17) One thing you’ll like to do before you die: Confess my love to my significant other

18) The first thing you’ll buy if you get $1,000,000: ? i can't buy love.

I'm tagging: Beat, Char, Ctee, Manda, Shar! (& anyone else who wants to do it!) :D

Swimming at Farmland, Mooo !

2008-09-06T06:10:00.000-07:00

Okay, updating for last week. SUPER LONG POST. haven't been doing much. Alot of maths, some bio and some S.s. Almost done with Venice. Wednesday = bomb!
Supp to have BK breakfast then off to swim at "farmland" (farmway) swimming pool with the cows and ducks, MOO?! haha. & omg. I swear Bk's a bitch. They didn't have breakfast at 10.50! Cos, too many customers? Wth! Learn how to stock-pile mann! hee. So, me and Beat had the normal meal, while shar had her macs! Then off to swimming with Amanda. Had a great time la. and took unglam pictures. They're unglam cos i'm in it and i look like _. haha. Anyways, they're up for the sake of it.

"Poly student?" thoughts of me and shar. LOL.

Friday=Quality time spent with Laughing partner! HAHA.

This girl here, came all the way from tanah merah to sengkang just to have BK breakfast with me! But once, again, Bk's a bitch remember. and so was i. Haha, i was 5 minutes late. And princess wited for me. So because of that, tho we reached before 11, there was no more egg for the breakfast meals. So the laughing partners resorted to Macs. Griddles and hotcakes. Homed, and watched movie online. Love her to bits, such a darling where to find ! And sorry 'bout the no breakfast thing. i owe you one.

No.1 HeartBreaker, I swear.

2008-08-30T05:34:00.000-07:00

No.1 Heart-Breaker, I swear.
Its not obvious enough or what! C'mon, i'm not blind la. You delete your inbox and sent items doesn't mean i don't know. Get a life okay. I really think you ought to be guilty. Don't tke what's not yours. Have a heart. If you still don't get it. think back and see what are you doing. Its really not nice. I hate bloody rivals and this kinda obstacles. Just hate it.
And to the other you, i really don't have the heart to scold, or do anything to you. Cos only i know how we used to be. Can we be the same again please? i still heart you. But really, you did disappoint me.

Bala is Love.

2008-08-26T05:27:00.000-07:00

Unforgettable. but i guess i gotta move on.
That describes the memories I had with you.
Never imagined you would go that far with her. Its sweet, thinking of the fact that you actually, went thru all those fights, arguments and the problems just to get her, who stays at the other end of S'pore. And not bad, you managed to put her in your trap. You're certainly a nice one, with the best heart, and i guess i know how she fell for you. I'm a girl who was in her place too, yknow. It definitely hurts a hell lot, but i guess it somehow feels good to see you being happy in the midst of your problems cos you've got her back if any thing's wrong. Days go by swiftly, but the feeling doesn't seem to fade at all. You won't know how it feels, cos you're not me. Its okay. I just hope you'll be fine always, and be happy with her? i know you love long relationships, so lets just pray for that? Liking you hurts, but gives a little joy when i see you so happy. I guess i'll end here. You'll never read this, but anyways, take care, and i feel like talking to you real soon. I miss the old times.

Fuck you, bitch!

2008-08-24T01:59:00.000-07:00

Its in code words.
Read if you want.

So now it's like that. You are changing everyday. Like wtf. I can't imagine you, being that kind of person. But oh well, you both are putting on quite a great show. But please, i'm not blind, i can clearly see what's happening. Just stop sucking up luh, it irritates the hell outta me. It's thru me, so don't act as if she was yours from the very beginning. I thought you knew that i hated this kinda matters though its trivia. This just proves how much you know about me. Never thought you'd be like this. You're leaving me disappointed, by the way if you didn't realize. Fucking disappointed. Just choose one. life's not a bed of roses. It has to have a few thorns. Gosh, please understand. Cos if you don't, what goes around, will come back around, so WATCH OUT, bitch!

To Kill A Mocking Bird,

2008-08-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

Sunday, its was the TKMB Play! I swear I didn't understand but yknow it was fun hanging out with friends. I din't wanna miss it cos I may regret if things change. Anyways, met the homies at Hougang station for a while and then trained to town are. had MOS for lunch then met Shar. all thanks to her Garfield tutor she couldn't join us. Haha. Then, slept thru the play till interval then shifted upstairs cos we wanted to slack. but w/o Amanda and Char cos they wanted to watch. After that, went off to Marina Square without Karin :/ Gosh, we had a jolly good time please, laughing our heads off at Swensens. So 6 people, but only 5 ate, and the bill was 9o plus. Goodness! Oh well, we always have a plan. Siti had brought her 4o dollar voucher! THANKS SITI! So, we went outside to the stairs there and cam-whored before home-ing! Pictures below, thanks siti, once again!

Remember, its a sin to kill a Mocking Bird!
<3

2008-08-18T03:44:00.000-07:00

Hello, hehehehehehe
Are you like, very very surprised that I'm here?
Hahaha, hurry shower! I wanna go home for my power nap.
Hehehe, i know you love me.
Toodles (:

xoxo,
BRATZ!

Fireworks!

2008-08-14T07:19:00.000-07:00

Okay, i just got some pictures. So late short update.
9th August,
Met Larve, Leshia, and their 3 friends at Marina Square area to catch the fireworks!
Oh, my sister came as well.
Had a good time, though it wasn't very clear.
Dinnered at Pepper Lunch.
Snapped Photos, almost all still with Larve!
Homed quite late, but I had fun!
*heart you, laughing partner!
She's like a star.
That song's from me to you.

I thought it'd be just me & you till the end.

2008-08-12T04:18:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking one guy,
but he's thinking of me, jane, nat & lily.
Yep, he had plenty.
But love for me, he didn't have any.
-My Version, with the inspiration of Ne-Yo.

Thought it was meant to be,
Till I picked up the phone one night,
and it was Tiffany.
She said he was her dude.
I said, is that a fact?
She said, I let him go and play,
but he always come back.
I said, that can't be true.
She said, it always is.
I hung up, heart was struck, Cause I just couldn't believe this shit.

All these words speak exactly what happened.
I thought it'd be just me & you till the end.

emo days.

2008-08-11T02:55:00.000-07:00

EMO TEAMO SUPREMO!
Thanks Shar, hahaha.

Though i'm down, the people around me, NEVER fail to cheer me up, with their nonsense. Haha. But i love them la, always bringing a smile to the stupid face of mine. Thanks to the things happening to me! Anyways, todya was study plus webcam session with Shar again. I mean everyone knows, the book's open but NOT MUCH work's done. HAha, i did some la, mind it kay. Yeah, then cam-whored as usual. Shar, we=cam-whoring. HAHA. And yes, Beatrice, go home quick, then can cam-whore together too, (:

I LOVE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME, I SWEAR!

Breathe me in.

2008-08-07T07:39:00.000-07:00

Thats what I can do for now.

Is it just my bad time,
Or should i take it as things are happening for the better?
Everybody says "I told you! See, you should have listened to me!"
But trust is the key to a good relationship.
And i refused to believe the rest,
teling myself i will only believe what comes from you.

Anyway, big thanks to my oh-so lovely friends who've tried their best to cheer me up.
Thanks Shar & Beat for the Prata Roll, and it did satisfy my cravings.
Thanks Char for the lovely hand-made card; You actually sacrificed your time from studying for practical.
Thanks Siti, for the double Chocolate Chip muffin from Famous Amos.
& the rest who text and talked to me, asking me to cheer up.

You really don't know how it feels like to be like this.
Cause if you had known, you wouldn't have done it.
Anyway, I won't blame you.
It is your life in the end.
And, thus, your choice.
Feelings come and go,
but only some special ones can be labelled "YOURS"
I guess i wasn't lucky enough?
I'll just put it that way.
You were nice, caring, loving and everything else.
But who knew you were doing it to someone else as well.
It hurts, you don't know.
It fucking hell does.

Thanks for the memories,
& the sweet things you've done, tho.
I'll never forget those.
Even the scene where i saw you holding her hand.

All i gotta say, deep wounds really don't heal that easily.

It sucks.

2008-08-05T08:42:00.000-07:00

Should I smile because we are friends? Or cry because we'll never be anything more?
But I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go. The worst thing is to know that I mean nothing to you, who means the world to me. When I saw you I liked you, when I liked you I loved you, when I loved you I lost you. I wish I had the guts to walk away from what we had. But I didn't because I knew you wouldn't come after me, and that's what hurts the most.

♥XOXO,
Its still me, Unlike You; You're changed.
ISLY.

The dearest.

2008-08-05T06:22:00.000-07:00

There's a reason why i call my dearest laughing partner, the sweetest girl ever, okay! Just cause me and Pree were talking about donuts, as soon as she got hme after school, she had her lunch, and went to city hall just to get donuts for us! AND mind it, its not normal donuts! THEY WERE DONUT FACTORY DONUTS! Oh my! Please who will ever do this! And so cute la, she bought a box of 6 for us, and BEST OF ALL, delivered it to my house! I was damn touched luh, larve! No one can replace they way you are, i swear. I love you to bits LARVE! thanks for the yummy-licious donuts, and they were damn tasty cause it was given with love/. I swear you're one of a kind and irreplaceable, heart you to bits okay. And i'll always be there for you, no matter what!

And to my fellow beloved friends, THANKS for always being there! Love y'all to bits too! (:
(I bet you GUYS know what i'm referring to.) *WINKS*

I can't get over you, & I just can't get enough of you.

2008-08-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

Exit Crew. is. the. bomb.

Okay. yest, was the other show. At Thompson CC. I went despite prelims, cos of the 3 great people who kept insisting that I should go, with them somemore. Awesome chance, do you think i'll let it go? Haha. Ofc not! Lol. So, left about five plus, (kiasu!) and reached there soon after. Gosh. The show was so good. Loved it. I was hungry but after seeing him, somehow it flew away. Then, this 2 annoying shit faces came to ask for number. But too bad. Haha, omg, so bitchy! Then another two kept calling me, but god knows how they got my number. Another show, where i saw so many people. Prolly, half the indian community? But, anyways, its NEVER a regret, I swear. Seeing you at every corner made my heart jump. Anways, lepak for a while, after the show, talked to friends, and reached home at 12 plus.

I hope its just not what i'm thinking.
I hope it's just that you're taking it slow.
But either way, my heart says i will wait for you,
cause you're one of a kind and no one has made me feel this way.
I love you, & will always do.

):

2008-07-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

Prelims have begun. And here i go, staring at the computer. And after a bad paper, i go, "I must start studying properly already lah!" And the words go together with the wind. I want, but i can't, and i don't. And best part, I just dunno why. Disturbed, distracted, and all these crap, i don't want it to affect me. English, S.s and Maths were so-so. And today's a fucking bad day, i swear.

1) Hy & Amaths papers were pretty bad.
2) I lost my doctor's appointment slip. Nvm, i still went SGH, treated it.
3) I was underage and couldn't collect my phone! It was supp to be highlight of today, and i was awaiting it for weeks! (But still, thanks Baby, for accompanying me. LOL. Not what you think.)
4) On the way back, saw _'s longest recent ex.

I just don't need it right now kay. Thanks for all these. And can i just get my fucking phone by Friday. You don't understand the things i go thru and the scolding i get just cos the phone's screwed.

EFFFF.
I miss you.

ISLY. But why?

2008-07-26T08:51:00.000-07:00

All the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart.

Prelims are nearing and what am i doing online! I seem to be very distracted easily. My ass keeps moving everywhere else! Doesn't wanna stick to the chair at my study table! Gosh, god! Save me, please. o's are in 3 months time, and its only 12 weeks please. I need to do well in order to enjoy later on! Maybe I'll get really serious tmr onwards. Intensive revisions. Nvm if Prelims' results aren't that fantastic, if i'm gonna ace my o's right!
Gosh, right now, with a broken heart, i can't really concentrate that much! But after a good sleep tonight, i should be doing okay.
& Thanks so much to Baby Beatrice, Sweet Partner Shar, and the person who kept making me smile t myself, Char, for making me smile and taking your turns to be emo spoilers! Oh and the famous one, Siti! (I won't forget) Love y'all to bits! I feel much better now!

I gave you my heart,
But you threw it away.

(:

2008-07-20T05:28:00.000-07:00

Exitainerz! You have my support all the way! (:
Danz Arena'08, rocks balls!

Yest was July 19. The day I've been waiting for! Left home at 4 plus, trained and met Easwary and Larve! Then straight to Dover to watch, The major competition. Gosh, loved it. Met Priya, and Easwary's friend there, after awhile. I really saw numerous familiar faces plus friends. (Note the diff.) Tskk. Then, entered almost at 7! Got, average seats and the show was good! Oh well, i liked it. Ended around twelve. Then cabbed with Larve & Pree to Newton Circus to dinner. Gahh, awesome food + quality time with laughing partner and sis! And yeap, i had a great time. Sadly, i couldn't take proper pictures cause of my setat's location. Thanks for coming! <3

Memories are more than enough.
My heart will always love you.

=)

2008-07-08T02:04:00.000-07:00

Unglam to the max! Ily, Shar.

Missed school today, together with Shar! Partner in crime. Tsk. Oh well, had oreo with milk for breakfast and its lasting me the whole day. I've been trying to digest Bio since afternoon and i'm only in chapter 3 now. I gotta study tonight as well and do more maths. So, webcammed with SweetPartner. And above are th unglam shots. Teehee. Shall go back to studying now.

ily.

2008-07-03T07:37:00.002-07:00

School was like crap cause my throat was being an arse! It hurts like fuck okay. So, i was being a lazy bum, lying down trying to have a nap after 1 hour of detention. but no, the phone's the biggest distraction. So, i decided to get up, and use the comp. Chatted with some annoying fella and Diana for awhile then rushed off to meet him! Had dinner at hougang. Porridge's like the best. yeah, then home-d! (:

Show me the path to your heart.

Study-Date?

2008-07-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

School has been rather hectic and stressing. Although I haven't been studying as much as I'm supposed to, I can feel the tension building up slowly. Prelims are nearing in about 3 weeks and i'm falling sick. Anyways, gotta start pulling up my socks. Went on a study date with Diana. Rushed home after school and then studied with her till 7 plus. She walked me home. And , she's too caring.

Too much to take,

Out with the homies.

2008-06-28T12:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the school play. So, rushed home after school and waited for Beatrice. She came & we dressed up in a rush to go reserve seats. But the frigging doors only open at 6! So, we waited with Jill, Gladys, Jan, Odelia, Christiana. Then, went in, reserved w hole row of fifteen seats. It's not an easy job, okay! Had to 'shoo' people away! Then, the jing gang came! HAHA. So, the show was awesome! Didn't expect that it'll be this good, seriosuly! After that dinnered, at Cafe Cartel! And chilled out plus cam-whored for awhile! Then headed home, and knocked off flat on the bed.

And now, i gotts leave to go shopping at Arb St. for deepavali traditional clothing. I know its super early. but I don't wanna be disturbed during the crucial period, so i shall get over it now! (:

I'm yours to keep,
But it's your choice in th end.

2008-06-21T01:51:00.000-07:00

Thanks a million, CTEE! With helping fussy me with this blog. (: The bloody weather's killing me. I'm gonna read s.s and have a nap.

2008-06-20T05:16:00.000-07:00

HI KARTHIGA. HAHAHAH! I love late night talks with you, shar and karin!

xoxo,
Siti (: